life threw me for a loop.

sometimes you have to squint to see the beauty in things.

3.08.2010

far fetched dreams shift to...

do not grasp it.. be gentle, kind. try to catch it.
fireflies in jars, the scent of wet grass...

i am NOT a liability. i am NOT an eating disorder. i am NOT a diabetic. i am me. a soul in human form and i want to LIVE. i want to take the path less traveled. i DO NOT want to coast through this realm. i want to taste it, i want to get dirty, i want to FEEL. I AM NOT MY PAST AND REFUSE TO BE DEFINED BY IT! hi! i'm angie and i am not a fragment. i am the whole... i am whole.

what is this reality? who am i? what am i? can you touch it.. the sky? the moon, the stars?
lovely how i hold my head up high while a war rages inside me.
i'm done pretending.
life is left for the living. god do i want to live... so much so.

i can taste it.

can you?

we've known each other for ages... and yet this is something new. i can't stand how much you repeat yourself. i am more than what you say i am.

this liquid energy rests in my chest. i can't breathe through this negativity and i stay awake while you suck the life from my body... and my soul.
how i long for you to be there for me as you should...
you are my mother after all...

i cannot penetrate these ties that hold us close... these that strangle and mutate... i am here to break the mold.

there is a crack in it... i can see the light through it... that is all that i need.
i am mourning the loss... there could be worse things i suppose..

1 comment:

  1. break the mold. spread your wings. soar into the heavens high above the earth. you are here. to be. to do. to live.

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